I just need to calm down.
I can’t even believe this shit happened.
Devin …
Like why?
Out of everybody is this stupid freaking world,
Why you?
We joked.
We laughed.
So why did you have to go?
You had so much ahead of you.
You were like super cool and awesome.
Why you?
I saw you EVERY morning.
Why you?
I can’t even believe this.
I saw you EVERY morning.
EVERY FREAKING MORNING!
I just need to calm down.
I just need to calm down.

They say “Its so funny what a smile can hide”, I use to think i knew what that meant but this statement just got a lot more literal for me.
I wish we would have gotten closer.
I wish I could’ve been on the phone with you that night and talked you out of it.
And I’m sorry I wasn’t.

Suicide just is so real to me now.
If anyone is going through anything that they feel like they can’t bare.
I’m here for you.
Please just come and talk to me if you need to.
Otherwise …
Peace and love to all and …
R.I.P. Devin (c/o 2012)

I know we don’t talk anymore.
I know I told you off.
I know I walked out on you.
I know I still have feelings for you deep down,
But
I’m glad that you’re okay.
I’m SO glad that you’re okay.

Anonymous asked: No, no, no. Asexuality is not a choice people make when they have relationship troubles. It's a legitimate sexual orientation, something you're born with. You can't just decide to be asexual. Furthermore, plenty of asexuals do have relationships, so it would solve none of your problems. The more you know.

I was legit joking, dude.